Goodness gracious, I haven't blogged since Valentine's Day? My sincerest apologies. I'm going through a phase right now. I knew at the start of the year with my list of resolutions that this was going to be a big year of changes for me. Sometimes I wish I could glimpse in the future to see what life will be like, I think I'd have a whole lot less anxiety. Just as today I can look at a situation that I had anxiety about years ago and wonder why on earth did I feel that way, everything worked out for the best. I wish I could go back and tell that self to chill and enjoy life more instead of stressing things unnecessarily.
Right now, I am in that up and down mode of stress that comes with life changes. One day I'm so excited about the future I can't sleep at night. The next full of doubt and anxiety, because nothing has happened yet. But..I guess in the grand scheme of life, it's only been 2 months, I should chill right?
There are 2 areas that I'm making changes to. The first is my body..I've been talking about and trying to lose weight for the past 4 years, and literally keep gaining and losing the same 5 pounds. In reality, I need to lose at least 50 pounds, but being a woman, you know, 65 would be ideal. It's time to stop pussyfooting around (excuse the expression but that's what it is!) and do something major..100% commitment. And I know I can do it..I just did a 21 fast and it went really well! I'm turning to Tracy Anderson for the exercise portion, I bought her book/boot camp dvd, which I attempted to start a few weeks ago and then got the sick that's going around. The diet..I'm still working on but hope to have it figured out by tonight. I know a couple people doing really well on the hCG diet. It is really intense but also really structured which is what I need. I will update later on which diet I choose!
The second area of changes coming is in my career. Not much to say about this, other than it's a rough time in the business world right now and I am trudging onward.
With a new bod and a new job on the horizon, 2011 could be the best year ever...as long as I remember to chill and enjoy life and stop with the anxiety!